Dean Cameron Allen, a 50-ish writer, designer, web-guy, and an all-around rascal, died this weekend in London, U.K. He leaves behind his parents, a former girlfriend and a lot of friends. If the universe feels a little hollow this week, now you know why.Jason Hoffman, founder of Joyent and a close friend, called out of the blue. He has just moved back from Stockholm, back to the Bay Area after a stint at Ericsson. “Dean is no more,” Jason said. He was fighting to hold back his tears, his voice shaking. I think I heard Jason say that Dean gave up on the struggle.
I couldn’t hear anything after — just the sound of blood pumping into my head. My veins were throbbing, and a foggy silence enveloped me. It has been a few days — the tears, like a delayed rainy season, are still not here. I am going about my week as if nothing has happened. The profound sadness of loss is not on the horizon. All I feel is a deep sense of gloom. Even music, usually a source of joy, has lost a note. I have woken up in the middle of the night — only to feel something, anything.
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